Getting a Handle on Things

(written June 8th)

In this past time, I have mentioned my ability but I have not fully discussed it. It has just always something that has been there since I developed after taking Promicin. I have not been using it as much as I should so I have not been able to have the practice in controlling it. I am still having to wear the black Anakin Skywalker glove on my hand because the part of my ability that stems from my hands has not been in full control.

I've been able to control the thoughts from the animals but sometimes controlling thoughts from human mammals is a whole other story.

Now that I am settled for a while and have a lot of spare time on my hands I thought it would be best if I were to take control of my ability instead of having it take control of me (we all know the damage it can cause of that happens).

I woke up at 2 a.m. this morning and began packing a backpack with the things I would need ( I was done around 3); leaving a note for Kai the moment I left since he was still asleep in his own room. And then I made my way down the marina. I'm really glad that my dad's boat was still there (he had bought one the moment he was returned since it would be a month since he would actually return home) and thankfully I had brought the keys with me.

I took the boat out to open waters in hopes of finding some sea life. Thankfully at three in the morning there weren't any boats out in the water. It was pure silence and darkness, the kind of meditative spot I felt I needed. It was then that I stopped the boat and anchored it, and got in the small raft that was tied to the boat.

I sat in the boat and gently closed my eyes- trying to concentrate on all that was around me: the birds in the distance, the sound of the waves and then I tried to tune in deeper. It took me about 15 minutes to finally find the sound I was looking for. I got out of the raft as quickly and quietly as possible and went to go turn on the speakers in the boat. I raised the volume to a good enough sound to where it wouldn't disturb anything. And then there it was: The sound of the orca whales.

I went back into the raft and closed my eyes again, as they got closer I could hear not only their squeeks but their thoughts as well. They were all around me and I could feel their presence. From the thoughts I gathered from them, they were thinking things like: 'She's a special one' and 'We like her'. They were even thinking of ordinary things like when they would find their next meal and when the next calves would be born and how many boats would see them in the day time when people went out on the whale watching tours.

I was able to open my eyes and still hear their thoughts. Then the most amazing thing happened. One of the young orcas popped his head up right next to my raft. It was still dark out but I could see them as clearly as I could in the day time. (I have no explaination for that but I'll learn from it). Nervously I took off my glove and then I was able to picture a large salmon. The young orca bobbed his head anxiously awaiting the snack and so I feed it to him and he went under. Another orca, an older female popped up and in my mind I was able to picture another salmon and it appeared in my hand. I tried it a third time except that it didn't work (I think because I was trying to go so fast so it stalled.) I was able to tell the orcas that it wasn't working anymore and they nodded and told me they understood. They told me that just like a young calf has to learn to hunt on their own, I too have to learn how to hunt on my own.

What they meant by that was you can be shown how to do something but it's up for you to practice and get the hang of it. I stayed with the orcas until dawn and then they told me they had to go. I told them that I hoped to see them again and their response was that I would get the chance. After they left, I put my glove back on and got out from the raft and started pulling up the anchor from the boat. I then made my way to an island surrounded by tons of trees. Maybe I will find some animals along the way since the forest is perfect for wildlife.

It's my plan to stay on this island for a couple of days so that way I can learn to harness my ability. Afterall I would not want some kind of food (weather it be fish or vegetable) to appear in my hand while I'm on the job at NTAC. And I don't think they will want me to wear my glove so it's my goal to get a handle on the ability before I start my new line of work. Overall, I would have to say that it's been a very satisfying morning and we'll see how the rest of the day goes!