Caution

(written June 1st)

It's June 1st and we are now in Sacramento, Ca. Kai and I have been keeping a watchful eye out. It seems that a lot of people here in Sacramento are very Anti-Promicin. There are signs and protestors everywhere.

Kai and I parked the RV at a trailer park and walked over to one of the anti-promicin protests to see what in the world was going on. There was a man in his early 40's standing on a podium talking about how wrong it was for people to take promicin. He said things that were very hateful and even to the point of disgusting.

I got another one of those ringing headaches during the protest and a lot of people looked at me funny. In my head I could hear everyone's thoughts- their screaming and chanting about how evil the 4400 were and how evil it was for those who decide to take promicin. They were saying very hateful things- almost racial things to a point. I just wanted it all to stop. I couldn't hear Kai but since this has begun, I've become accustomed to reading lips. Kai simply told everyone that I just have bad migraines when things get too loud and noisy. People just nodded in sympathy and went about their business as Kai walked me out. We went back to the trailer and there I lay down for a while.

After the ringing and the headache stopped, Kai brought me a glass of water, locked the RV door while Sai stayed next to it to guard it. Kai then turned on the tv. There were Anti-Promicin protestors everywhere on the news. About 10 miles away from us, the protests got so bad to where tear gas had to be thrown to stop the angry mobs. You can see some Promicin takers in the background (it's easy to see because they are the calm ones- the ones who just stand. No shouting or anything. Just simply standing) yet they don't do anything to stop it. Guess I don't blame them since I'm one too. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I hate what is happening. This is not the future had in mind (at least that's what I would like to believe.) Now I can't stop but wonder how Jordan Collier and his team can be handling all of this. I am 18 years old, what made me think I could take on a mission like this? And as a Promicin taker and as a gift to my father, shouldn't I be one of the few to stand up to people like this? I know it's what I should be doing, but why in the world am I so afraid to stand up for what is right?

I can only hope that these fears inside of me go away and that I am able to do the right thing. Maybe when the right time comes I will be able to do something. But that's just it- do I make the right time come for me or does the right time just come on its own? How will I be able to know?